The Devil Inside Me : Anger Lies behinds the Smiles

The Devil Inside Me

Inside Four :   Anger Lies behind the Smiles

Anger lies behind the Smiles


Anger is there no matter what you do.
Eventhough you are laughing, you are smiling or when you are praying.
They will always be there. I don't know if it will be gone and disappears,
I just know that anger needs to be control.
To be taught and to be tame.

Everyone needs to be angry.
You needs to express yourself.
But if anger doesn't be control or you lose the momentum of yourself,
anger will blows up and trust me, you are not the only person anger will blow.
Everything around you will eventually blows up.

You see, anger is a virus. It contagious.
If one person blows, the other people that involve will also gets the blows.
When that happens,
it depends solely on yourself.
How do you control your anger.
And how do you calm down and take charge over anger and make sure,
anger stays and won't blow you anymore than it already did.

I am yet to master the art of calmness.
How do you stay calm,
when everyone keep on feeding my anger.
My anger eventually will blows,
and the final hit is I'm afraid is really really near.

Everytime I tried my hardness to control anger,
I find myself tearing up,
my veins vexed up and I have to keep on repeating to myself
I am okay.
I do not need this.
I am okay.
I do not need this.
How in the world am I okay?
How did I know I am okay?
Obviously it was a lie I told myself so my anger can get calm
 and eventually it will rest and sleeps
until the next blows.

I really really want to kill my anger.
I can't live like this anymore.
Anger eventually it will kills me,
before it can kill anyone else.

Everyone knows the art.
The art to calm one anger.
Believe me,
if people don't know,
you will hear news about suicide and homicide
every seconds and every minutes.

One must know how to control one's anger.
Regardless who it belongs to.
If you know how,
you can live without the fear of anger caught on to you.

Anger will always be there.
Hiding behind the sweet little smiles,
Waiting patiently until the last blow.
If that happen,
run.
Run and never look back.

It's too late.

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Syawal in Sendayan 2015

Syawal in Sendayan 2015

It's the time of the year again!!
After Ramadhan we have Syawal boys and girls!
And on this Sweet-Month we celebrate our winning against lust in
Ramadhan.

What's different this year is,
we decided to celebrate Eid in our new house,
in Sendayan!
Tara-rara~~ * insert drumrolls here
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Bonda said that she wants to welcome
this new house and experience the celebration in this house.

So we did all the prep need to be done...
It is really rare to see this sight of the knights.
we are not the clean up girls type.
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anyway,
lots and lots of image are going to turn up,
so beware of self-satisfying!! hahaha

I start with the prep for Syawal

1st of course, Kuih Raya!
Actually this is just half, 
A bit exciting about hari raya this year I think.
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And the cleaning begins!!
We change all the sheets,
all the curtains and I even moves the boxes 
from the breakfast table!
Before this, 
under the table is full with boxes and boxes!
You can't even see the kitchen!
I did this all myself!
I am sugoi!!
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Then we splits.
Each person have their own task.
let me break it for you guys.

Bonda: Put the little thingy inside the curtain.
Of course she monitor us and instruct. hahaha
I can't say exactly what bonda did but she always in between works.
She gives us spirits and hope!
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Little Sis : Mopping, Dusting and Vakum. 
She even dust the fan and the lights that are almost 10metres high. Of course using the stairs.

Baby Sis: Cleaning the toilet
She cleans all the toilets! I give her 8/10! It's spotless but always room for improvement!

Twin: Wiping windows
This new house has lots of windows and my twin cleans them all!!

The Lord: That's me btw.
I change the sheets and curtain for all the room except aniki rooms.
I don't know who did that room. hahaha

I know we splits up our works,
but when the time comes,
everyone was moving as one.
One minutes I was in the rooms, but when little sis needs me I was out with her,
the same with everyone else.
We work together and helps anyone that needs help.
It was easy this year.
I was almost having fun cleaning the house...
Okay, I did have fun!
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So this is the final product!




After that we straightaway goes to cooking!
No pict,
since everyone doesn't wear hijab~

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Moving on.
The celebration of Syawal

This is me. 
No, I didn't wear any purdah. I just play with my shawl.
and I wear my birthday present from dear twin!
They say I look scary.
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Family Photo
We actually did a sit down version,
but unfortunately I don't have that pictures in my possession.
No wonder I can't make a photo manipulation,
I always ran out of photos.
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We look so happy right~

Tada!!
Presenting my nephew!
Can't remember his full name.
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3 Generations Picture
Baby Shahin but his name is longer than that.
I hope I can take pictures like this with Bonda.
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That's all for this year.
I hope everyone have a great Eid and hopefully
a very sweet and happy year.

So for this year Greeting's Card
I present to you
Love you guys,
and god bless!!
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maybe if I finally have the pictures,
I will make a new post about our Eid's Outing.

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