Sometimes the ones we loves,

Sometimes,
the one we love the most are one who hurts us the most...

and sometimes,
the best way to resolve this,
is to end it...
even though you will get hurt,
or afraid,
or unsure
but 
to end things that hurt you,
keep you alive...

You are stronger...
Believe you can be free..
believe you are Ok...
believe that this is the best..
Allah is always with us...
no matter what we do,
He will always be there...

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outing:IKEA

[This rupenye in my draft.. I completely forgot about this..]

going to IKEA,
because i like that place!
i love the place~
like one big studio for me...
and we went to IKEA on 2/2/2013
because of me,
and because my twin want to try the
famous meatball!~
it was okay for me...
but can't understand why everyone was like,
meatballs!
meatballs!!
well, maybe of the name/brand they bring..
it was delicious,
but i don't like them to that extend i'm craving for them...

carry on,
 we went to IKEA,
surprisingly,
my little and baby sis are more exited about it...
keep disappearing every now and then..
they carefully examine the furniture,
the price,
the design...
i was like...
wow, they are serious...

little sis without hesitation,
sleeps on of of the bed,
to get the feel of it...

me looking here and there..
playing here and there..
hehehehe...
baby sis,
pretend to enter my house without permission...
or in her word.
our house is her house as well

me:sitting on the counter drinking tea, konon
baby sis: hai kaklang, (straight away to the fridge) masak?
me:don't give special attention to her instead continue to drink...
nope, kakngah masak...
baby sis: oh nice (take out the spoon) i want to eat..
and then we began to laugh...
baby sis: this is it! jadi cmni la best!!

but there are too many people that day,
it's hard for me to enjoy myself..
i keep bumping into people...
maybe because CNY is near the corner...
so everyone is looking for something new for CNY...
maybe...

but 
we had fun..
just can't play or act to my satisfaction...

and after IKEA,
we go and watch 6D!
it was super cool!!
but super short!
really tak puas...
i want to go again!
but not like instantly go again!
yang tu memang nampa sangat jakun!
hehehe...
but 6D is the boom!!
i can understand why people like them so much!
it gives you the feel of reality...
when you bumped into the tree,
you get the feeling...
the air,
the sticks,
it pressure...
it was worth it!
thanks my twin for pursuing us to go and watch!~

and baby sis, 
is super cute,
that people begin teasing her...
from the moment we want to buy the ticket, 
and after we watched the movies...
the guys keep teasing her...

she's scared to go on the 6D,
because the guy said it feels like roller coaster..
it really did!
and you should see baby's face..
super pucat and sangat tak nak naik..

ticket guy:you have to sit in a single chair..
little sis: eh? bukan couple seat?
ticket guys: dulu, now single seat..
baby: eh? janganla... tak nak taknak...

baby sis, why are u super cute?
i understand why that guy wants to tease you,
and keep on teasing you...
if i was that guy,
i will also do the same thing...
hehehehehe~

this two posing together..
so sweet...

[okay since this is from last year... my memory has failed me badly..
can't remember anything that I want to put in this day..
but please visit my twin post... maybe you get more from her than me.. XDD]
this is my twin version of IKEA fun day~

all in all I really had a blast this day..

and me look kurus!! hehehehe
p.s gambar I took from my twin~ hehehe

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When the time comes...

I dedicated this post to my beloved
Mak Lang and Nek Teh.

Mak Lang passed away in April I think.
Nek Teh passed away last Sunday 20 April.

the sadness in unbearable,
but you are in better place and I pray that
Allah
will forgive all of your sins.

May their grave be filled with light and peace and may they see
their place in Jannah  from it.

this is not goodbye. 
someday we will meet again..
I ask Allah to reunite me with my family in Jannah.
-amin


'to Allah we belong and to Allah we will return.'


p.s - I did my first funeral prayer in Nek Teh's funeral.

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Pak Lang Randomness

Last night(24/4/14) when we was eating dinner
my twin phone's rang...
she quickly run to get her phone..

"hello..."
"owh... mak, kejab  ye.."
"mak. Pak Lang."
she gave the phone to mak who answer them...
........
.....................
"eh nahlah!! Pak Lang nak usik awak aje!"
and mak laugh!

my twin answer the phone back laughing..
we all can't stop laughing at his randomness..

this is kind of  'usik' from our beloved Pak Lang..
Oh! How Random can you be!


p.s. Pak Lang was talking with Mak minute before he called my twin. cute rite XD

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本当にごめんなさい

I really am sorry that this happen
if only I search high and low

I search but,
never I expect you to be sleeping there...


[      if only I     ]


it's hard to forgive myself when you are no longer alive...
and my mistakes was to blame..

it's my fault that you die,
I'm sorry is all I can say...


[     I'm sorry    ]



when I saw how hurt you are,
and how helpless I am.



[     I'm sorry    ]



there's nothing I can do to put the pain away...

I was there but I wasn't there...
watching as you struggle with the pain,
I try to remain calm and help you,
and you draw your breath,
when I know it

you have gone...




[      if only I     ]



I'm sorry...
I didn't mean for it to happen...
yet,
it happen...





[     本当にごめんなさい   ]







may you rest in peace
- R.I.P Mogwli

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second beginning


anew beginning for me...
2nd January 2013 - 5th August 2013
7th April - currently

It's my second chance...
but for me it's feels like a second beginning..
I hope for the best outcome...
whatever Allah has plan for me..

although this is not what I've wanted,
but
I'm thankful to Allah swt for giving me second chance

I may not know what is BEST for me,
but I know Allah do..


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