Today is your last day...
The day have come for us to part ways,
Pain and sadness growing inside,
trying my best I put up a smile
but seeing your name,
I give in
slowly tears begin to come
and it finally fall when I saw your face
and it finally fall when I saw your face
I lose it.
Tears is normal at this time
people have their own way to grief
I guess this is mine
for me to let you go
I have to cry
and let the sadness flows
I try hard to look away
don't want to see your name
or your face
but I can't
since today is your last day
I want to be with you
to send you away
so I brace myself and just sit
and I remember
and I remember
all the memories I had of you
they keep on replaying in my head
I have to stop myself
the memories burn me to ashes
the pain tighten up my chest
but I regret nothing
because this is how you lived
and I wish to keep you living
It's hard to let go
It's hard to let go
I try to keep calm
even when it's hard and difficult
trying to be compose
so I can say the word and you can go
and off to the new place
so I can say the word and you can go
and off to the new place
I know it's hard
I know it's difficult
but I can't keep you
it's time
you were no longer mine
yet you was never mine to begin with
and here comes the time
for me to return you
for you to go back
yet you was never mine to begin with
and here comes the time
for me to return you
for you to go back
to the place where you belong
where you know your heart longed
where you know your heart longed
how I wish that I don't have to let go
For me who never knew the real you
for me who never speaks to you
who doesn't have the chance to be with you
the pain is beyond my imagination
and yet I can't imagine the feelings
of those who are dear to you
your families
your friends
your brothers
your sisters
your fans
To lose you,
To let you go,
to know that this is it
it's the time
the time to finally let go of your hand
to send you away
to put a strong face
to accept that this
this
this is the reality
this is happening
this is the future
that you will no longer be with us
and now we have to accept
our future will no longer have you
the time have come
to be without you
so long...
no more that sweet smiles of yours
no more that beautiful voice of yours
no more that high notes of yours
no more that powerful voice of yours
no more that playful action of yours
no more you
no more
no more
Sometimes I wonder why people choose death
when living is full of beautiful things
I try to makes sense
try to find explanation
try to find answer
try to seek understanding
yet
I know there's no answer
there's no answer that can makes me whole again
no answer can make me understand
what you see
what you have
what you feel
that feeling
is something I can't see
is something I can't feel
is something only you
and only you can understand
I will not blame you
I will not question you
but I'm letting you go
I can't send you off with a smile
even though I tried
the words alone makes it hard
how to say I'm sending you away when inside I know
I don't want to part away
I hope you understand
that this is harder than you think
to gain control of myself
and said that it is time
that I can finally let you go
even when I know I'm lying but still
I'm letting you go
forgive my selfishness
Can't imagine my life without you
not because I'm used to have you around
not because I always have you in my mind
not because you make me complete
or because you are the reason I'm happy
no, not because of that
the reason I can't let you go
is because
your presence is something I cherish
and you always makes me smile
that memories is precious
and it make it harder to say goodbye
I'm sorry
I don't know how else to mourn
I don't know how else to grief
writing makes me relief
that's why I'm writing this
so that my feeling can finally be at peace
and I can finally send you away
without any burden
without and anger
without any hard feelings
just content
calm and peaceful
that this is for the best
that you are in the right place
on the right path
going to a glowing place
where your smiles come out naturally
waving at us excitedly
looking at us warmly
I look back at you and slowly I smile
and said the words you want to hear
you work hard
you did well
and I know now it's time
to finally let you go
I hope this time
you finally get to sleep
without having nightmare and dream
just a peaceful sleep
after years of struggling
years of holding
finally I can say
sleep well
sleep well
sleep tight
and may you have a peaceful sleep tonight
I saw today news
where they are sending you off
Their face is hard to looked
They keep holding it in
but the sorrow in their face
shows how much their heart broke
how it have broken to pieces
and that hurts me more
shows how much their heart broke
how it have broken to pieces
and that hurts me more
Tears flows again as we realized
we have to say goodbye
inside we know this is the final call
this is the end
the last time we be together again
I can feel their pain when they closed the door
when their face said
I'm letting you go
I can't understand myself
how every mention of you brings me pain
Even the one where you laugh
or the one you are having fun
watching you is painful
and I question myself
Why?
Why?
Why?
I should be happy that you finally be free
yet here I am
crying even when I am writing this
I know it's finally time
to really let you go
I wish I can have one more day with you
just to tell you how much joy I received from you
how cheerful I am because of you
how I wish I can tell you
it's okay don't worry
I'm here let's be happy
once you are gone
you are never coming back
all that left is regret
and deep sorrow
that I should have done something
something that will make you stay
it's stupid and it is too late
you are gone
and you really not coming back
it's time
I'm sending you off
not because I want to
not because I have to
but because
that is the right thing to do
I'm sending you off
for the best
this is what you want
for you to be free
free from that life
that haunt you and hurt you
finally
you will have the freedom
free from all the demons
now you can finally be happy
I'm letting you go now
Off you go
to somewhere far
I don't know where you are
but the time is near
for me to say
Goodbye,
I'm letting you go
hoping you went to a flowery place
where you sits by the tree
playing the kazoo
where behind you
shines a bright pearl aqua moon
and you shines so bright
even we can see you
goodbye my dear
you did very well
rest well my dear
you did very well
sleep tight my dear
you did very well
I miss you my dear,
but
I'm sending you away,
so long and goodbye
and
you did very well
bye...
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