i'm not angry....

at 1st i only want the time to heal the wound...
but when i read you entry and you mention me...
i think i have to response..
so people..
especially  you...
will know my side of the story...

to let you know...
the reason....

........................................


on Wednesday (12th) night,
i called..
mom pick up my called...
since i called you and you ignore...
then i ask to speak to you...
and mom said you are watching tv..
you said you going to called me back..

but i insisted...
to speak to you..
regarding my departure to KL tomorrow...
you pick up the phone..

i start to giggles...
but not so long after that..
the phone changes hand..
back to mom..
and when i speak to mom about the matter..
then mom begin to get angry..

on what counts?
i don't know..

mom said she will ask you to called me tomorrow afternoon..
i said no...
i said you have to answer now..
because i finish all my class in the morning...
and want to go back soon after...

and you pick up my called again..
and this time...
you speak without the soft tones...

and you sound harsh when you said it...
and i end that called..
with...
"ok"

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that's the story you know...


now,


 this is my side of the story...


i called,
not to ask...

you know when i called you..
i don't called to get approval from you..
or from mom..
if you can or can't go to that function..
i'm still going back home..

why?


i just want to....

do you know, that i clean all my time just to make sure i be home?
i talked to all my group mates and friends,
that i will be unavailable on Thursday onwards..


i reschedule my meetings..
i finish all my assignments...
i postpone my dates..
because of,




do you know,

that when i called mom..

i just finished packing my stuff?
i also have checked the bus...
i asked my friends for a ride...
i have done all things,
to make sure i go home on thursday..



i really want to go home...
to be with you..
to accompany you...
and yet,


you hush me off,
with that tone of yours..


let me be clear,
i'm not mad,
nor i am angry...


i'm sad.....
 my heart is hurting...
and even now..
it still does...


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you see this post


really, when you said you are sorry never gives excuses...
you just have to said you are sorry without trying to bail yourself out..
otherwise, it just makes you look bad...

and before you try to bail yourself out,
try to know the reason why you want to apologize...
don't make the other party sorry about your situation...
it's not like that...

why do you apologize anyway? i just don't understand..



yes, it's for you...


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1 comments:

alina neko said...

sorry

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