LiFe is HarD, so KeeP oN MovIng

It's still Eid so

Selamat Hari Raya!!

Happy Eidul-fitri to everyone!!

one of my poscard design ^__^

Well, to start the Eid is kinda sad and unexpected.

First my mom fall sick. 
Really sick.

She's walk with walker before but 3 days before Eid her legs completely gone weak.

Even in the house she has to move using wheelchair.

She can't even lift her hands.

She's been spoon-feed evensince.

So raya this year,

we are busy both with raya's prep and mak.

It's sad when I see my mom looking at her grandchildren

but she can't hold them anymore.

No more nenek's hug...

She can feel but she can't move.

Then, my little sis is on-call for the first and second's raya.

My dad's first Eid is with his second's family.

My cousin Ifah and Ika is with Ifah's family in Johor.

We wait until the 3rd day to visit all the families

but minus ablong's family.

he's going back to Kedah on the 2nd raya.

when we have gather everyone.

but not Ifah and Ika.

I have to wait for the 6th Eid to finally see them.

Mak really push herself to visit the families.

I can see that she's tired and it hurts her to moves,

but I kinda forced her to go.

Well,

raya is no raya if we don't visit the families.

So....

Yeah... I force her..

hahahaha

but on my defends she has tons of fun!!

We meet a lot of my mom's cousin,

Of course I have my share of fun too.

I get to meet my aunt and cousin who lives overseas

They come back to celebrate raya in Malaysia.

Aunty, uncle and my cousin at our toksu's house.

It was a full house!!

Totally a blast!!

Mak and abah's selfie
Two of my favourite people!!

The only family's photo that I have.

Woo-hoo, lucky me~

The Rain's Troop abit short this year.

Hahaha still, a happy Eid it is!!~

We are all one crazy-happy bunch!!

Then after we got home
we schedule mak to visit the hospital

The doctors set up a date for the MRI's scan to figure out,

what exactly happen to mak.

I hope she can be cure.

Maybe not as healthy but I sincerely pray

that she can lift her arms and legs again.

To be able to hug again.

Well even with a lot of my family missing on Eid's day

raya is still a raya,

and even without mak's hug,

a mother is still a mother.

regardless.

Love you mak!
I love you all!!

The Devil Inside Me

Inside Seven :   I'm sorry that I trust you

The trust I build.
The trust I have.
Crush.



The intention was not clear.
The answer remain a mystery.
The only thing I know
that you choose to betray me.

That's all it takes, for me to walk away.
To leave you together with the memories.

I never imagine how painful it is to be this way.
How a human being can be cruel.
How a human heart can stand the emotion.
How I...
How I can be strong and still wish for you to be happy...

I will not point finger.
Or say it was your fault.

The fault will remain a puzzle.
Either it was yours or it was mine.
Maybe it was mine.

Looking back I know,
I trust myself,
how good I have been.
How devoted I have been to you.
Yet, it was not enough.

I'm still confused as why this happen.
My knights however told me not to.
The truth can be gray but myself have been clear.
I have been good.
I have been awesome.
and if that is not enough for you.
Then,
walk away.









No.






I'll go.

I'll go, my friends.

This is where we part and I sincerely wish
that our path will never cross again.
Adieu...

What's more,

mine is way expensive than hers.

I'm grateful to Allah because He gives me her.

May Allah swt bless you with all kind of blessing!

Love you love~

It was so fun hanging out in Nilai 3.

Panas of course. In the store they didn't have enought air-cond.

I was drenched in sweat..

T___T

I was totally over-excited looking at the goods there.

It will be fun to shop for raya there.

Maybe after renovation kot (insyaallah. semoga dipermudahkan)

Korang boleh jadi

literally giler, tak tahu nak buat keputusan and penat.

Sangat penat because every stores has it's special things and special price.

and the third one we spend almost 2 hours. hahaha

p.s I actually don't have the intention to post this.

but my addicted sister insist I put this on my blog. 

So this is it. hehehe.

Happy Mother's Day, Mak!!!

I love you with all my heart and wish the very best for you.

I may not be a perfect daugter

or even a perfect child but I love you nonetheless.

You are my soul, my shine and my life.

Everything that I do and everything that I am going to do

is because of you.

I hope you will be forever healthy,

and forever happy.

May Allah's SWT bless you my dear mak

and have a happy year

because you deserve every single bits of it!!!

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