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start of something new...

1:21 PM | Labels: 2012, abnormal 3rd year~~, finish and begin, kizuna

finally,

after 3 years of hell and heaven...

3 years of pain and suffering...

3 years of loves and friendship...

finally...

it reach the end...

of course..

once a chapter is finish,

i will start on the new one...

a new phrase..

a new beginning..

a new life...

a new chapter for a news adventures...

a start...

the journey in USM is awesome!!

and i won't forget that...

i hope not..

because i love my life here..

i love everything things that i've encounter here...

it's a blessing to live this life...

because everything that happen to me here...

make me who i am today...

so i'm thankful...

so hopefully,

the new chapter,

will make me an even better person than i am today...

to every person that know me here...

please do keep in touch..

or remember me,

as i will try my very best,

to make sure this forgetful mind of mine,

will always remember you...

thank you and thank you...

and i'm sorry for everything that happen,

deliberately or unintentionally...

and thank you,

because you let me in,

into your circle of life...

until then,

jya~

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another 25th birthday!!

11:57 PM | Labels: 2012, 25, abnormal 3rd year~~, birthday, kizuna

Selamat Hari Jadi

25th

my friends (CG's Girls) throw me a surprise birthday party!!

yeah!!

surprised i was!!

actually i was on my way out to dinner with my girls~

when ika knock my door...

i said

"masukla..."

silence....

"ika masukla...."

.................

then i went and open the door when

"happy birthday to you.... happy birthday to you..."

waaah!!!

suke suke!!

i was so happy!!

in the end i cancel the dinner plan,

insisted by ayu, ika and emi...

and proceed with picnic birthday party!!~

so here is a couple of pictures for you guys...

-my orange cake-

-me and cake-

-you guys know her, my roommate, emi-

-my lovely junior jaja-

-my sweet friends syakirah-

-my lovely one of the kind ayuni-

-a proposal?? hihihi-

-another birthday girl suraya-

-mastermind ika-

-a slice of my cake for you guys!-

-don't worry, i don't lick it-

~~not infront of the camera i don't~~

-meh ayu saya suapkan-

-nah makan makan!!-

-laughing so hard-

it was a good picnic...

a great time to spend time...

almost time to say good bye~

i am happy to have a friends like you all...

it is a blessing to know,

in my circle of life,

i get a chance to meet you all..

thank you for being my friends!!~

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tada!~

2:53 AM | Labels: abnormal 3rd year~~, moments

yeah!~

that's right!~

i'm finally home!!~

it's been a week though,

been wanting to updates but haven't got any chances...

too happy enjoying this moments...

hahahah~

actually i got the pictures when i first got in KL...

but i don't know why,

my bluetooth connection failed...

and i tried many many times already...

still we have Mr. Google aren't we...

here what it's like haven't come home for a while...

maybe not this beautiful...

and not this clear with colour and all...

but i think u understand what i'm trying to say...

it's good to be back!!~

i have to go back for certain matters....

and return back and back again...

then i will be home for good!!~

and then finally...

the time we have been waiting for...

or i've been waiting for...

muahahahahha!!~

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through hardship...

7:27 PM | Labels: abnormal 3rd year~~, baby sis, its have a reason~~

through hardship comes happiness...

nice quote...

and a very good meaning...

through hardship,

suffering,

broken ribs,

broken heart...

you go through all this things and then one day,

you will find your happiness...

i really like that...

it happen to me...

today...

my baby sis,

got 4 flat on her matriculation exam...

it really makes me scream!~

but i didn't scream cause i was with my lecturer

discussing about my thesis...

her result makes my heart ease with pleasure and proud...

this one thing makes me smile today...

not many good things happen to me...

or not many things,

can makes me smile these days...

i don't know since when....

i can't really say the date...

but since i finish sprout exhibition,

it got worse....

my depression been hanging tightly on my neck...

i can't seem to chased it away...

it just stay there...

i don't know what is the cause to my depression...

of course people won't notice this...

because when there are people around

i faked it...

worse when i'm alone...

it makes me almost impossible to smile...

i can't even twitch my mouth...

something hurt

deep inside my heart...

i can't seem to let it go...

because

i don't know why it hurt...

why am i depress?

did something happen to me?

what makes me hurt?

did someone hurt me?

why am i crying so much?

did i do something wrong?

my heart hurt like it's going to burst....

why?

why?!!

so many question...

but yet no one can answer...

i tends to sit...

alone...

thinking...

and questioning...

hoping to hear answer...

but..

when i begin to question myself...

the more depressed i tends to become...

the more visible my problem is...

one thing that i found,

hurt me so much...

it makes me hate...

me....

the cause...

that particular things,

is too small to make me feel this bad...

is what i think...

but...

can it be because of it?

because of that i become like this?

how weak am i?

how pathetic can i be?

how small is this soul...

that it cannot stand this kind of hardship...

how small is my soul,

getting work up because of this...

how stupid is me...

to take this serious shit?!

and how weak is my heart and soul...

to let me be influences badly....

to let this body suffer...

to let me become like this...

my heart...

my soul....

they betray me....

to let me down,

because of things like that....

they fail me....

i fail me....

i let myself down...

i let myself be weak...

i am a failure....

and tears fall without showing sign to stop...

oh god....

Ya Allah....

i know you can hear me....

i know you are with me...

please hear my prayer...

please oh please

Allah swt...

please...

chased this depression away....

i can't fight it...

i can't ignore it....

please help this servant of Yours...

fighting over this...

to myself....

to me...

dear heart,

dear soul...

you know you are strong...

so please,

don't makes me question your power...

you proved to me once that you are strong...

stronger that anyone i know...

even when things get worse,

you

stay

strong...

never to let the wind blow you away...

you have been my companion,

my best man...

my good man.....

but what happen heart?

what happen soul?

you change...

you've changed...

you get mad easily...

you cry easily...

you touched at small things...

and

worse,

you never smile...

never again that smile appears as sincere as it used to...

i hear your sighing every minutes....

every seconds...

something bothering you,

and you won't tell me...

what happen that makes you like this?

what happen that broke you like this?

or is this some kind of jokes you like to pull?!

why are you doing this to me!!

you are not what you used to be!!

you've changed

and now

you changed me!!

are u happy that i'm depressed!!

are you happy!!

why?

why heart?!!

why!!!

why can't you just let it be...

there's nothing you can do...

nothing in your power can change anything that happen!!

just let it go...

acceptance is the 1st way of forgiving...

don't you dare forget that...

i am strong...

i know i am strong...

but without you my heart and soul...

who am i?

i am nothing without you...

i beg you....

please...

don't let this be worse than it already is...

in this time of needs,

i can only counts on you...

i don't have anyone,

that understand me better than you...

you are my heart...

my soul...

and i know you can hear me...

please....

don't leave me hanging...

don't leave me like this....

through hardship,

comes happiness...

through this shit,

i hope a rainbow will come and colour all my problems away...

and the rain will wash all this sadness...

and the sun will brighten up my days...

through hardship...

i learn to live....

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sekarang

12:15 PM | Labels: abnormal 3rd year~~, sekarang

baru-baru ni...

or in dalam bahasa ibunda recently...

aku dikejutkan dengan msg yg banyak...

n missed called dari pelbagai pihak...

ok org femes yg aku ni mmg biasela ader missed called n msg..

kan...

tipula if kate x suke...

ader missed called org cari..

ader msg ader menda yg dicari...

so of course aku suke sgt...

dunia busy nila aku suke...

if busy means i have jobs,

being free means i'm jobless...

jadi bila aku suke mende ni pun jadi lagi gilak~

paling byk missed aku dpt 22~

terkejut beruk aku bgn2 dari tido

22!!

what!!

mmg giler life aku time tu...

aku dahla mmg giler...

tambah ni jadi insane!

anyway,

ape yg buat aku x suke ngan missed called ngan msg

sebab comfirm dorg nak cari aku...

nak cari sekarang...

now..

ima...

mmg bukan salah dorg yg memerlukan aku diwaktu sekarang...

tapi kadang2 aku rasa sesak nafas...

sekali sekala nak sekarang aku boleh terima...

tp almost everytime they need me sekarang....

kalau aku asyik bagi sekarang ,

mane sekarang aku?

rase cam nak nangis kadang2...

sbb aku org yg mengikut plan..

if everytime they contacted me they need me sekarang...

lame2 aku pun jadi sawan...

x sempat nak sober kan diri dah rushing adrenaline kena berkjearan ke sana-sini...

of course it's not your fault..

i'm not blaming anyone...

just merely state my feelings...

keje mesti buat..

faham...

keje mesti jalan...

pun faham...

cuma dalam kite buat keje....

x semestinya setiap perjalanan tu kite suke....

setiap perjalanan hari ni....

aku ambil,

jadikan pedoman,

pengajaran....

sekarang,

mengajar aku erti kesabaran.....

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update [about me]

1:25 AM | Labels: abnormal 3rd year~~, catching up..., kazoku, twins

a lot have happened to me since my last post....

when is it again...

last week i suppose...

oh i can't remember...

anyway,

since i have lots to tell,

and afraid if i will forget...

here goes...

updates about me..

1- finish my Rintis Exhibition...

mom, dad, kakngah and irah came to watch me...

despite the wheelchair it seems to me mom was enjoying herself...

abah too was excited bout my work...

don't worry abah, if Allah SWT said my rezeki is in the industry,

i'll make it there... insyaAllah...

kakngah n irah was excited with our exhibition and my friends...

going here and there...

i was so overwhelmed by their appearances though i may not look like it..

but i was so happy and delighted by you guys!~

thank you!

you all are the best!!

2- i got Weirdo back...

while abah was visiting me for Rintis,

abah also deal with Weirdo...

he's ok now...

maybe a lit loose here and there..

but he's in the perfect condition for me..

i can drive him around USM...
but still nervous and afraid of cars..

so i don't want to drive outside the usm...

not at the moment...

3-my project is a success!!

i was so happy for the project!

though the room's condition is not to my favour..

other people project's light was overshadowing my shadow...

the bright light from them actually ruined my shadow..

but i think my lect quite understand my situation...

despite that audiences loved it..

and i loved it too..

and i know my mom loved it more...

4-have to start looking for job..

i will finish university in june..

i don't want to be unemployed for a long time..

and i want to start saving...

5-i didn't follow the original plan to pursues master..

i end up choosing working experience than learning...

hope this is the right choice..

i will do my master after a few years..

insyAllah...

6-i actually can see who my friends really are...

even those who are close to me seems like strangers when i know the real them..

makes me thinking that i want to end this right now...

but people said if we are true friends,

we accept good and bad things about them...

i don't know about this...

makes me hurt!~

7-my-was-once-into-him came to the exhibition..

not my invitation though... shame...

but i was happy because he actually want to listen to me talking and explaining..

quite happy though he is not the one i'm hoping to see..

but still happy to see him...

8-because my teeth have healed now...

i begin to carelessly drink sweet stuff + ice....

and it begin to affect my feet...

have to control and drink plain water only...

9-can sleep almost anywhere,

begin to developed this ability when i was doing FYP...

if i put my head down,

instantly i begin to feel sleepy and in 3 minutes...

Zzzzz~

10-can't wait to go home...

i miss my home to bad!~

11-anyway my dear twins...

happy birthday to you!!~

i know you want a post for yourself...

i understand..

i'll try to make it...

but don't hope for it so much...

time is restricted me from doing so...

anyway may Allah swt bless you as you walk this new year...

hope you find the perfect HIM for you...

and can't wait to meet him too~!

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Black as we see it...

2:02 AM | Labels: abnormal 3rd year~~, fyp, kizuna, magic

here i am...

wondering my own business,

when suddenly...

we all was like,

what?!!

not again...

it happen so many times already..

it can hurt our soul and lappy,

lappy can't be switch off like that..

it hurt him~

yeah, it's totally black out rite now..

i was on phone with mom when i hear 'tap'!

and then the whole floor went black..

or dim...

~~but there are still light in level 2...~~

hmm..

~~but i know it is dark here..~~

and they said the power source 'tendang' the main power...

thus all the power been cut off..

sugoi kan..

like all of our equipment is so damn powerful that power source can't support us..

thus he demand a raise!~

-gimme a raise!!-

~~what a face 0-o~~

oh dear..

our 2nd year was doing their editing thingy...

and didn't save em when this happen..

poor them...

our class also face the same problem..

hope everyone keep calm..

and

let's keep fighting for the FINAL!

ganbare minna!

even in this kind of state we still have each other...

hahahah!!

in this kind of situation,

i wish i had my crush with me..

so i can makes this an opportunity to be close..

but i don't have crush...

-sigh-

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Finally it's here~

7:36 PM | Labels: abnormal 3rd year~~, fyp

it's been so long!!~

hihihi, do you guys miss me?

i haven't have anything in particular to updates this blog..

furthermore, i'm in charge with my exhibition's blog...

and i'm in charge with the exhibition's money...

plus i'm also making the teaser for our exhibition..

not to mention to i'm keeping my eyes on my crew...

and to top it all,

i have to finish my final year project before 18th May~

wuhoo!!

so much fun!!

so just for you guys,

our final year exhibition will be held in

Penang Pac, Stairts Quay, Penang

18th May to 20th May!~

be sure to come and support me!~

until then,

bye bye!~

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alhamdulillah

10:54 PM | Labels: abnormal 3rd year~~, exhibition, fyp, its have a reason~~, magic

bersyukur aku padaMu, ya Allah

alhamdulillah

setelah pelbagai dugaan dan cabaran yang datang padaku...

akhirnya aku berjaya juga dipilih sebagai salah seorang peserta

dalam pameran tahun akhir Rintis 2012....

walaupun bagi diriku,

projek ku amatla sederhana tetapi apabila dipilih aku berasa bersyukur yang amat..

alhamdulillah...

syukran ya Allah, syukran...

tidak sia-sia kau berikan aku dugaan dan cabaran...

kerana kini aku merasai manisnya kejayaan itu...

syukran ya Allah...

aku berdoa juga padaMu, ya Allah,

permudahkan urusan 8 lagi sahabatku...

biarla kami semua dapat bersama-sama dalam pameran ini...

ya Allah ya Tuhanku,

perkenankanla doa hambaMu ini...

amin....

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Picnic in Feringhi

1:59 PM | Labels: abnormal 3rd year~~, Good FRiends~, kizuna, magic, moments

Picnic with Bestie!

it was a fun day for the four of us!!

me, eaty, zaa and eieen...

the original plan was,

eieen will come to eaty's dorm if and only if there's food prepare by me..

and then out of no where,

eaty said.

"eh ape kate kite gi picnic?"

and that's when all this nonsense become a reality..

at 10.30am me and eaty when to Tesco and bought things needed for the picnic...

air,ayam,mangkuk,sayuran...barang2 basah... to name a few...

and balik from TESCO super FLASH we started to cooked..

but eventually at 4.30pm we finished!

menu:

spaghetti prepare by me...

sandwiches prepare by eaty....

coleslaw prepare by zaa...

the spaghetti was what do i called it?

success?

i think success is a good way to describe it..

as i cooked it with not the usual ingredients..

i just let the ingredients be equally or slightly the same with the original one...

huhuhu...

luckily it taste good...

~~takut sangat keracunan makanan kawan2 alang...~~

and the sandwiches is delicious!~

the 1st to siap pun sandwiches gak..

thank you to eaty for the sandwich and jadi bendahari kitaorg..

you're the best!

tambahan cili for kak long eieen...

hihihi, and we pack a whole sack with pepper for eieen!!

hahahahah~

and the last one, which took us the longest time to prepare is

COLESLAW...

seriously...

nak potong cabbage and carrot to tiny pieces...

takes a lot and a lot of time!!

and patience...

tengok zaa buat and make a couple of them myself...

i can't stand them really...

huhuhu....

but it taste good!

good effort to zaa...

and we have a good good time!!

we arrived at the beach at 6.30...

late right?

but sokay..

the original plan was to eat at the beach pun..

so we eat and eat..

takes photo and eat some more..

and at 7pm eaty said..

"wei korang jomla mandi.. dah pukul 7 dah ni!"

and we rushed to the beach and

mandi!!

the beach at this time still terang..

luckily i said..

and at 7.30 we are done..

just to get the feel..

so 30 minutes is enough...

and we pack super duper flash!!

sebab eaty dengar monyet nak datang rompak makanan kiteorang...

eieen and eaty zup zup zup,

dah ader kat depan...

super duper flash!

got a glimpse of the monkey...

they are looking at us...

intensely...

macam nak makan/terkam kiteorang.....

we run run run...

fuh!

selamat..

and we mandi2 siap2 and then ke masjid...

after solat,we go to Relau...

why you ask?

of course to Karaoke!!!

hahahah....

so we pick the 1 song = rm 1~

and after we sang song we decided to eat the leftover of our food...

and headed to Queensbay's beach...

we open the picnic's food once again...

and,

MAKAN!!!

we makan so banyak kali...

XDDD

but we are super duper happy..

yelah to create the last memories in this few months..

before we part kan...

so things that i cannot forget from this picnic is;

1-we solat at masjid terapung.. which the toilet is next to bilik mandi jenazah...

but the masjid is really beautiful...

2- zaa dropped the coleslaw that took most of her times...

and when the Tupperware dropped she screams

"korang korang! nak buat ape ni? orang x thu nk buat ape!"

XDDD

3-eaty xnak tunaikan permintaan alang nak tembikai smile sbb xthu nak potong...

and she said "x tunaikan pun satu memori tu" ^^

4-zaa tunaikan since she said to eaty

"bak sini,meh orang yang tunaikan permintaan koko"

terharu!~ ^^

5-lari super duper flash sbb nampak monyet..

6-menyanyi kat relau...

zaa melepaskan perasaan kat pusat karaoke...

7-practice panning+nightshot kat karaoke..

8-picnic kat queensbay beach...

9-picnic with my bestie!

thank you so much guys....

for this awesome memory!!

p.s i update the photos once i get them from eaty....

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tada!~

through hardship...

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update [about me]

Black as we see it...

Finally it's here~

alhamdulillah

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