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25th I Welcome

25
-sweet 25 almost half way there-

finally i reach it!!
and as happy as i am, i am also sad...

anyway,
this year my friends managed to pranked me..

tahniah!!

at first anys said she wants to invite me and afif to a movie...
of course...
being addicted to movies i just can't said no...
but when we are in the car 
she didn't drove to the cinema 
but instead 
heading to the Studio, 
New Media's Studio...
she said she has something to pick up..
her charger...
then all three of us went into the studio...
talking and laughing when suddenly,

"SURPRISE!!"

and came out our friends singing happy birthday~
that was my (and afif) 1st time being prank...
hohohoh...
because June means holiday...

i never celebrated my birthday with friends before...
it was my first time...
so it was meaningful...

since our birthday is not that much apart (afif 17 me 19 June)
they decided to celebrated it together...
and it was nice of them...
i  really really really had a great time...
everytime i remember they jumped from behind the curtain and table 
i just can't stop smiling...
thanks guys!
i really appreciated it!

-me and birthday boy-


my family host a small party...
like usually,
only kite-kite je...
it was so much fun!!
i was anticipated this year birthday..
that's the only reason i decided to went back instead of staying in USM...
i really want to celebrat my 25th year alive with the family...

so i was happy to be presented with this birthday cake...
but honestly i was surprised to see this cake...
it was actually the same from previous birthday...
hahahaha...
reincarnation i suppose...
oh well,
my feelings at that time was happy and confused..
i'm not mad or anything...
just the choice of the cake startled me for a sec...
but that confusing and startling is one fault
that i must remember not doing
-again-

we can get upset for the smallest things...
every thing went wrong for that birthday...
i really hate it...

-forgive me but i need to tell this story-
what i feel... what happen...
i want to preserve it for the future....

i hate it when i said stop no one listen...
i hate it when they can't control their feelings on my birthday...
it's my birthday for god's sake!
pleasela...
you guys bukan budak kecik...
must you broke things to get statisfied?!
must you be angry just because people tease you!!
i went back to celebrated this birthday with you guys,
and this is the birthday i got...

it will be one birthday that hard to forget...

i really am disappointed...
if i can control all emotion that day...
why can't you? or you? or even you?
it's suppose to be my day...
now it become what?
worse day....
instead of being happy and say good things to me,
i have to consult you guys...
i really am angry and sad...
what a bad luck...
and someone said that next time,
we say what we want for birthday,
so there won't be 2nd times again...

but if we do that where is the element of surprise?

i don't want to say whose wrong or right...
no one is perfect...
i just hope everyone can understand each other...
there's a reason for that cake,
and there's a reason for that teasing...
just bare for a moment...
no need to be that upset and upsetting other people..
if you can't do it for yourself,
think for other people..

your action can harm people...
therfor i am so sorry...
because of my action this year,
my birthday is not as happy as i want it to be...
but furthermore,
i hope we get to learn more about people around you...

people change and it's not going to hurt you,
to learn about them everyday...
i hope this year birthday will not repeat itself again...
i try to be better tomorrow...
and i hope you guys forgive yourself,
as i already forgive...

so that's my 25th birthday....
this will make sure i remember my 25th birthday for a very very long time..
and i really appreciated that you guys manage to cool yourself down...
and let me enjoy the rest of my birthday happily...
you guys get matured every year...
i really love you guys and therfor 
please forgive me...
for telling this story...

how my baby sis, little sis and twins grow,
i don't know...
but thank you guys..
thanks for being there for my birthday...
for trying really hard to celebrate my birthday...
though it happen like that i still have fun... a little bit... hihhihi...
and the cake is delicious...
but maybe for next time,
don't go for the same cake twice...
hahahah!!
and get me a present! 
a real one!!
not 'kasih sayang' and song!!

and my twins,
i really am sorry i'm not there on your birthday...
i try to be there next year....
thank you for your hard work....
i appreciate it so much....

oh baby sis...
thank you for 'cleaning' it when there's no one to help...
you really gave me comfort that time...
i sincerely glad that you are there to keep me company...

and my little sis,
thank you for coming to my birthday party,
despite your busy schedule...
thank you...

i really glad that all my knights are there on that day...
but we got to make a feast more like a feast~
there's no chicken chop that day...
i just love chicken chop....
craving for it...
but i rather cook it then buy it...



neway,
I Love You So Much

thanks mom and dad
for giving birth to me....

thanks maklong for always care for me...

to ablong and kaklong,
thanks for being there...

finally,
thank you knights 
for always be a faithful knights....



moral of this year birthday sometimes words hurt...
&
ohana means family,
family means i love you...
just that
(^__^)


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Final 1.1

the end?
of course it is not the end..
but its half of it..
another half will start next semester...
yes..

for this 1st semester...
i realize...
i don't participate much...
i don't join any activities,
that usm held..

most of it because i can't make time..
half of them is because i'm afraid i can't make time..
another quarter i'm just lazy...
hihihi...

anyway,
i have a blast!!
this semester is also
 the best!!

i have, 
many memories...
many hardship...
many loves...
& many other things...

but i want to have
more more and more!!

i want more memories..
err... a little less hardship if i could...
and many many more loves!!
and others things that i wanna do!!

oh one thing i forgot to mention...
last exam..
my desk number is 
236..
i mistaken the 6 with 8..
and i end up in 238 

and said..
"err... ni bukan meja saye ke?"

and the guy 
*thankfully quite handsome
said with slow tone,
"eh ye ke?"

and we both go out on a date and re-check..
because i was looking from above,
the number still looks like 8 rather than 6...

and the guy said,
"betolla ni.."

and i said again..
"eh bukan ke ni saye"

i point it to my number 
but still fail to notice the 6...
ai... sighs
in the end,
the guy helps me to notices..

he said..
"betolla ni nombor saye.. awak nombor brape. ni nombor awak.."

thankfully again,
he wasn't mad or laughing....
i hope~

to
Mr. Nice Guy,
i'm really sorry for causing reckless things...
i should have re-check the number above and below...
thank you for not getting mad...

that's is the 1st time
in my whole life!!
i mistaken my tables for others...
usually i'm not that clumsy...

anyway,
for next semester...
i just wish i can finish them with a smiles...
i'm praying,
that everything 
work out as planned...

insyaAllah...

p/s- i'm waiting for my kazoku to pick me up!! 
now they are stuck in traffic...which is bad because it's near CNY... 
hope they arrive safe and sound...

p/s 2 - we are going on a HoLIDAY!!! yeah!!!

p/s 3 - until next time....

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Jodohku dah ditentukan...

Jodoh ku adalah kamu....


as you can read,
it says that, 
our soulmates,
our husband,
our spouse,
our one and only,
my baby,
my darling,
papa,
yunk,
abang,
atok,
nenenk,
 or what ever you want to called them...
have been decided by Allah SWT...

ever since we are 4 months prengnancy in our mother wombs

so there's no need to search guys,

Allah SWT has written every thing that exists 
including the destiny of all creatures

so,
to my soulmates..
whoever you are....
wherever you are...
whatever things you do...

may Allah swt bless you...


i've done searching...
now I am going to wait....



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loves nurture the earth~~

people see IT coming...
people know IT coming...
people expect IT..
people welcome IT..
i know IT..
never expect IT to come..
not this fast, no...
but here it come...
and i fall right into IT..
without warning..
IT snapped right into my heart...
making me hard to breath...
hard to think..
hard to do anything...
and worse of all...
IT doesn't do anything to me..
IT really didn't...
IT just me and me...
and i know...
if i didn't do anything IT will go away...
i don't want IT to go away...
owh IT!!
please stay...
stay until i got the courage..
the timing...
the right moment to say it..
owh IT...
do you know...
what i fell??
no you must not..
its too embarrass to let IT see..
but do IT know how it hurt??
it hurt IT!!
it hurt so much!!
but i am thankful IT...
because of you i experienced it...
never know it before..

but if someone ask me...
"do you want to experienced it?"
i would say,
"no, i don't want..."
but IT...

can you see a liar when you see one??


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