LiFe is HarD, so KeeP oN MovIng

Hitman Reborn Finish!!
[spoiler]


It was a good manga.
I enjoyed the beginning but near the end or to be specific,
starts from
Sena and guys are brought to the future and so forth.

After the guys went back to the past,
I expect something funny or light 
but
the story straightaway went into next battle.
It is to be expected since it already turn into a battle manga.
I really enjoy the humour and the lightness of this manga at the beginning.
It was funny and easy to read.

The battle is a nice touch, I don't deny.
The fighting and the character development with the weapon upgrade
is really nice and exciting.
I really enjoy the fighting too.

but...
maybe because I read this everyday,
so I become tired of the fighting scenes.
If there are some lightness/humour in between would be nice.
Like a rest stop.

Still,
it is worth reading them.
The story is unique and have a weird turn around that makes me go
EEEHHHH?!!
hahahaah

The one part that I really enjoy and loves,
is the familia!!!
The mafia family. 
That is to be expected since this is a mafia manga.
I loves how they portrays the bonds between the family members!!
Kyaaaa~~~


I give 3.5*
the tiredness really blew things away.


Introducing Vongolo Primo(1) Giotto 
I especially loves this character eventhough he's not the main.

Primo and Guardians
The 1st generation of Vongola family.
They're dead and not the main character but they are so cool.
hehehe~


Vongolo Decipmo(10) Tsunayoshi Sawada
Tsuna in battle mode.
He looks exactly like Primo because he is his descendant.

Overall,
I enjoy them.

The Devil Inside Me

Inside Five :   I'm not strong

I'm not strong


I'm not strong as everyone thinks I am.
The more I smiles the more I hide.
No one knows anything and no one try to find out.

Everyday just pass by
and I'm lock inside depression.
My mind keep on playing the same sentences over and over again.
"Do it."
Do what exactly.
Aren't I doing it? Is it not enough?
Is it not enough for you?
Is it hard for you to understand how hard this is for me?
Why am I here? Why do I have to go through this?
Why not you?
No one sees the problem I'm facing.
To people this is leisure.
This is happiness.
This is heaven.

Just so you people know.
This is not leisure.
This is not happiness,
and this is certainly not heaven for me.

This is hell.
This is hell.
This is hell.

I'm living in depression.
It's suffocated.
It's disturbing.
It's killing me.

I do not wish to be here.
Nor I wish to stay.

Sometimes,
what we hope for will never be granted.
Sometime,
the more we try the more we fail.
and sometimes
the more we live, the more we die.

I'm not strong.
I never was.
I put up a face and pretend I was okay.
I'm not strong.
I will never be.

I will fight.
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I lie.

I guess so.

Now my heart is pounding like mad.

On the verge of tears.

Still I try to remain compose.

The result.

Writing here with poker face.

The art I have done being critics.

It was for my own good.

Still it hurts me much more than I prepared myself.

I know this is good.

I will evolve.

but,

Truth hurts.

I'm not going to lie.

Even if its for my own good.

It's still hurts.

The pain will be here for awhile.

Maybe after a good night sleeps,

I will wake up and this will all be a dream.

Keep fighting and stay strong I guess.

sigh~

1st Interview in October  2015

with

Saraya Zahret

It's been a long time since my last one.

I'm thankful.

After that scam,

I kinda reluctant to answer any unknown numbers.

So I didn't answer this one.

Fortunately they send me an email,

which is good.

I applied for the Graphic Designer post.

Obviously, duh~

Well,

they are looking for a junior post.

and they can't afford to pay me my expected salary.

So I don't know what will happen though.

The question I learned from this interview is

1. If you work who will take care of you mum.

(I said currently I'm taking care of my mom)

2. Are you interested in fashion

(I answer truthfully but have to think again how I delivered them)

3. Are you okay with over-time.

(I doubt any human being is okay with over-time hahaha)

4. If the pay is low will you be interested?

(I don't know how to answer this. I'm interested in working but I don't know...)

5. Is this laser printing?

(She asked me about my portfolio. 

I am seriously can't differentiate a laser printing and what not.

Have to study this.)

That's all that I can remember.

Well it's not a long interview.

I waited almost 2 hours but the interview is like 10 minutes I think.

If you are wondering what is Saraya Zahret

here is their istagram.

https://instagram.com/sarayazahret/?hl=en

No,

I'm not promoting them.

I just want to introduce to you guys the company 

that I went for interview.

I have yet to get an answer.

I'm not desperate or totally indifferent.

I just let Allah do His thing.

I did my best for the interview,

the rest is up to HIM.

It's exciting and scary at the same time.
It's exciting because I expect a lot for 2016.
It's scary because what I want to achieve this year is yet to be successful.

Well,
we have 2 months and a half because we reach the end.
I have to push myself more.
So I won't embarassed myself when I look back.

To people that are struggling with their life right now.
"Gambate!"
Keep strong and have faith.
There will definetly be light at the end of the road.
You just have to push yourself.
The light ain't going to show up itself.

Look for it.